1402) Status Update: w/c 5th November 2011 November 5, 2011
Posted by pete1844 in Uncategorized.add a comment Jalal, 2nd Qudrat, 168 BE The Glory and Glory of Power Saturday, 5th November, 2011 AD . 1402) Status Update for w/c 5th November 2011 . 05:44 a.m. 5/11/11 . My father passed away on 11th October 2007, my mother on 9th October 2011. I received two cards of sympathy from Baha’i Institutions the Spiritual Assembly of the Baha’is of Oxford, and that of the United Kingdom, worded as follows:- . “Dearest Pete, Our thoughts and prayers are with you at this time. We pray for the progress of your dear mother’s soul. Thinking of you, With love, The Local Assembly of Oxford” . “”I am the Sun of Wisdom and the Ocean of Knowledge. I cheer the faint and revive the dead. I am the guiding light that illumineth the way. I am the Royal Falcon on the arm of the Almighty. I unfold the drooping wings of every broken bird and start it on its flight.” Baha’u'llah. Pete Baldwin Dearest Pete, The National Assembly was sad to hear about the passing of your beloved mother, and has prayed for the progress of her soul in all the Worlds of God. May the Blessed Beauty send you His grace, love and comfort at this difficult time. With heartfelt love and prayers, The National Spiritual Assembly.” . 14:33, 5/11/11 . Watching Ellie Arroway played by Jodie Foster experiencing First Contact in “Contact” by Carl Sagan yet again. Though I would gladly give my heart to a woman like Ellie Arroway, I know it would be futile since we could be nothing more than friends, since I know Jodie Foster is gay and would never have any interest in me even at my best. C’est domage! When the alien in the form of Ellie’s father shows the number of sentient beings by allowing sand to pour through his fingers, an ARC of sand particles catches the light. At the end of the film Ellie, back on Earth does the same, and an ARC of particles catches the light. Such coincidences are not, but whether Carl Sagan, or the scriptwriter, or the film director had the slightest idea of what an ARC or particles catching the light might possibly mean to 7 million Baha’is around the world is at this time, unknown. And the proof, the circumstantial evidence, nearly 18 hours of static in alien time, recorded in a split second of Earth time. The first ARC of sand particles was like a concave radio telescope facing the left, the second faced upwards to heaven. Alternatively, to the West, to the United States, and secondly to the North towards Akka from Haifa, just like the Baha’i ARC of 5 buildings (1 remaining to be built) on the slopes of Mount Carmel. Could it be that in the Major Plan of God, God looks towards the United States to sort things out on Earth, and that in the Minor Plan of God, the essence of humanity, woman, looks towards the ARC on Mount Carmel to sort things out.
1401) Published: Status Update: w/c 9/7/11 July 10, 2011
Posted by pete1844 in Uncategorized.add a comment Jamal, 17th Rahmat, 168 BE The Beauty and Mercy of Words Sunday, 10th July, 2011 AD . 1401) w/c 9/7/11 . So, what’s new? What’s interesting or significant? In the last few weeks, I’ve read 3 books:- “Brainwash: The Secret History of Mind Control” by Dominic Streatfield, “A People’s History of the United States” by Howard Zinn and “None Dare Call It Conspiracy” by Gary Allen. The situation about American corruption seems to be bubbling up to the surface as never before and so many seem to waking up to it, that maybe the genie is now out of the bottle. Where it will lead to next is unclear, though the comments about it from The House (UHJ) are keeping us all up to date as to its significance. This conflict between “the people” and “the super-rich” seems to be something that Baha’is are not necessarily taking sides on or involving themselves in, but nevertheless, the Baha’is are, I imagine, watching the situation carefully, just like everybody else. In my own personal life, I’ve started reading “Change for the Better” by Elizabeth Wilde McCormick about CAT (Cognitive Analytic Therapy), and have started focusing more on my own personal issues rather than the unbelievable goings on in the USA. And in this situation, a sometimes tenuous relationship with Baha’u'llah, seems to be giving me all the strength I need to carry on, without any noticeable stress or anxiety. My favorite Baha’i activity is chanting the Baha’i invocation “Allah’u'Abha” 95 times daily. I do so to the tune of “Allah’u'Abha” as sung by the Baha’i music groups Gyenyame and Islington, and I find this daily exercise very effective in clearing my mind from the hypnotic dross of western media, and reinvigorating my link to the Lord. It seems to me quite significant that His station and rank, spiritually, as hinted in the Tablet of Visitation, and a quotation by ‘Abdu’l-Baha cited by Shoghi Effendi in I think “World Order of Baha’u'llah”, that He is the Authority from God for the whole history of mankind, at the very least from Adam (maybe 10,000 BC?) to the far distant end of the “Baha’i Cycle” around half a million years into the future. Such a perception seems from a down-to-earth point of view rather extravagant and far-fetched, but to my mind, in the light of Arthur C Clarke’s “Fact is stranger than fiction” the nature of Quarks and Super-strings, and more than 4 dimensions of space-time, and the apparent secret history of the super-rich arbiters of modern history, such a claim for the station of Baha’u'llah, however incredible, is no more extravagant and far-fetched, than that explained by scientists and alternative journalists.
1400) Published: Status Update: w/c 14/5/11 May 15, 2011
Posted by pete1844 in Status Updates.add a comment Jalal, 17th Jamal, 168 BE The Glory and Sovereignty of Beauty Saturday, 14th May, 2011 AD . 1400) w/c 14/5/11 . c.22:00, 15th May . The DM in St Clements, which was based on some quotations from The Writings on health and healing was a wonderful evening of Baha’i fellowship, further rescuing me from the abyss of disaffection brought on via the sorrow and disapointment of the last 2 months, as all the usual aspects of living a Baha’i life as coming back on line. Moving on from the attachment that brought so much sorrow, I feel a renewed sense of being content to live my life for myself, not being dependent on anyone else. The daily Baha’i exercises of reading the Writings morn and evening, the obligatory prayers and reciting Allah’u'Abha are now starting to reestablish themselves in my daily routine, and now, opportunities to enjoy the social life of Baha’i meetings are starting to reestablish my life outside my flat again. Yesterday involved a discussion in Woodstock on the 28th December message from the Universal House of Justice, and today involved a prize-giving in Barnet where about 30 children from a dozen of schools were awarded prizes for their various pieces of work on the concept of world-citizenship. The usual routine of the last few years is steadily reasserting itself, minus that attachment, and life is good. . 16:49, 16th May . I awoke at 12:50, but still tired, went back to sleep and awoke at 16:35. I had dreamed that I had travelled in time back to 1979 and met myself in some social setting such as might have happened a few years before in St Marks Road in Henley. After I woke up, I felt as if my perspective, for the first time was no longer about what I might acheive in my life, but what I might have achieved in my life. At 55 years old, my life has mostly already happened. . 06:51, 18th May . Started reading, in earnest, “The Cosmic Ordering Service” by Barbel Mohr. It seems that these factors are already working for me in a minor way, to arrange the traffic at the Cutteslowe Ring Road roundabout, enabling me more often than not, to cross the roundabout without stopping and safely too. The 19 Day Feast in St Clements last night was very pleasant, as well as a late night discussion in Headington with an old Baha’i friend before cycling home. I deliberately missed my medication last night, so as to be up bright and early to be in Bicester at 10:30 for an interview with my consultant. Otherwise getting up in time would have been well nigh impossible. It entailed getting only two hours sleep however so I can’t do this every day. .
1399) Published: Status Update: w/c 7/5/11 May 10, 2011
Posted by pete1844 in Status Updates.add a comment ‘Idal, 14th Jamal 168 BE, The Justice and Speech of Beauty, Wednesday, 11th May 2011 AD . 1399) Status Update for w/c 7th May 2011 . 00:10, 11th May . It doesn’t feel comfortable typing here at the moment. Its over 2 months since I last wrote, and there have been changes. Here, late at night, with RLS making my feet excruciatingly restless, getting to sleep is the last on my agenda. (RLS = Restless Legs Syndrome). The RLS, which I feel mostly in my feet, is due, as a side-effect to the psycho-active drugs presribed for me. A more technical label for this restless is akathisia. Its preventing me for concentrating on this, so I think I’ll leave this for tomorrow, when this evening’s Quetiapine/Seroquel has worn off. . 12:27, 11th May . Set the alarm for 06:30, but I didn’t hear it. The phone rang at 10:20. Before I checked the time, I assumed it was my care coordinator, due to see me at 14:00, but it was a call centre, claiming to be making a routine call about my computer. I asked them if they were Dell. No. Have Dell asked them to make this call? They hung up. Cyber crime? Anyway, I was awake, with 40 minutes to get up and get to Costa Coffee to meet Jan from MIND. A good chat to summarise progress to date, and then home to cook lunch before a session at the Kaleidoscope Centre at 13:00. . 17:14, 11th May . A tolerable day, with some progress. After feeling sorrowful after 7th March, an extra month in hospital as a result, and from that sorrowful event, feeling disinclined to eaither pray or read the Baha’i Writings, just 24 hours of reading and praying again, has changed my mind-set and demeanour markedly. The session at MIND was about “well-being” and looking after one’s mind. Then, after an elated report back to my care coordinator, grocery shopping in Kidlington Sainsbury’s, watching a documentary on iplayer about peace-seeking from 1918 to 1945, and sampling some of the culinary delights of my rucksack, namely humous followed by clementines. . 17:19, 12th May . Boredom is the enemy of hypo-mania, and after the tendency towards that over the last few days, due to having nothing specific to do yesterday evening and during today, plus the medication of the daily 350 mgs of Quetiapine/Seroquel, and getting plenty of sleep, has left me people quite down to earth, even though I read from BRC (Baha’i Readings from Canada) and recited the SOP (Short Obligatory Prayer). Last night’s sleep WAS delayed by infuriating RLS (Restless Legs Syndome) or akathisia, but eventually died off anf allowed me to sleep. All this punctuated by eating and watching the news on RT. . 18:13 . Just had to summon forth my assertiveness skills, to ask details concerning freehold/leasehold, building and contents insurance, and mortgage companies and solicitors, of a potential seller, with my family estate as the potential buyer. I arrived home again, slightly stressed out, but nothing being entertained by the TV couldn’t handle, and cause me to feel calm again, as I prepare food for dinner. . 23:19 . Question Time again, and I like Vince Cable and David Blunkett. No surprises there, then. Durng the evening, with the TV in the background, including a documentary about human biology from cradle to grave, sorted out some organisation related issues such as arranging transport to the Spring School in Burnham in Berkshire later this May. No emotional issues today on account of the Quetiapine last night. Life is comfortably mundane. . 14:00, 13th May . Due to Quetiapine, as usual, couldn’t wake up before lunchtime, so too late for salat el jumu’ah with MECO; a lazy slow getting up during the afternoon for a DM in St Clements. DM = Devotional Meeting.
1398) Published: Status Update: Emotionally Flat? March 5, 2011
Posted by pete1844 in Status Updates.add a comment Jalal, 4th ‘Ala’, 167 BE The Glory and Grandeur of Loftiness Saturday, 4th March, 2011 AD . 1398) Emotionally Flat . The first day of the week, was a case of PBMAS, (Post-Baha’i Meeting Anti-Climax Syndrome), wherein the love, joy and happiness engendered last night with the Baha’i youth at a communal breaking of The Fast, did not continue today. The reasons were clear enough and fairly mundane; lack of sleep, lack of reading The Writings, lack of discipline to restore the balance of faith, so today was a let-down, despite a 5 hour study from early at 08:00 in studying the 28/12 message from the House.
1397) Published: Status Update: Normality Restored February 26, 2011
Posted by pete1844 in Status Updates.add a comment Jalal, 1st Ayyam-i-Ha, 167 BE The Glory and Splendour of the Days of Sprit Saturday, 26th February, 2011 AD . 1397) Normality Restored . After a mammoth twelve hours sleep, I got up to cycle home from the psyche ward, and spent a relaxed afternoon, after buying new brake blocks and a new bell, and then groceries, just catching up with the washing up, cooking dinner, with John Barry playing in the background. The world hasn’t changed from before the 5th January, apart from the pro-democracy movement taking north Africa by storm, and the perceptions of strange events and phenomena that I experienced last June and this January are back under the carpet, held at bay by a rational mind strengthened by the drug from the pharmaceutical industry called Quetiapine and marketed as Seroquel. Now life can resume with a degree of normality that I thought I would never welcome, but now do so. There is an Ayyam-i-Ha music concert starting tonight at 20:30, though in my heart, nothing will touch me unless she is there, and my rational mind tells me that she will not (be there). And so my unrequited passion for her weighs me down, or if not down, then sideways, to a world, on the same level as all my peers, but removed to a reality which they do not understand, know of or recognise. Such is life. . The Ayyam-i-Ha concert was great. Whilst sad that she was not there, the connections made with other Baha’is were lovely, as were a few interactions with some of the non-Baha’is there. I feel a new vitality as a Baha’i, which reinforces my love for her.
. ‘Idal, 1st Ala, 167 BE The Justice and Splendour of Loftiness Wednesday, 2nd March, 2011 AD . Since the concert on Saturday, I feel that things are changing, though very subtly. With reference to discipline, though my ability to do homework, such as for the Chinese Mandarin Beginners course is still very poor, my ordinary daily time managment skills seem to be improving, with a stable sleep pattern established thanks in great measure to the Quetiapine, and following on from that a daily spiritual exercising, of reciting (and chanting or singing) 95 times, “Allah’u'Abha”, and the Obligatory prayers, plus reading from The Writings morn and eve, which is having a powerful effect on me. Not least of this spiritually edifying change is a greater degree of detachnment, resignation and radiant acquiesence, concerning romance. I would imagine that, if known about, this is a beginning of taking pressure off her. Conversations with friends, with a mutual friend standing nearby, possibly overhearing, plus her own “man in Mexico”, quizzing me on my status, makes me suspect, ever the paranoid, that she is “listening in” vicariously through the reoprts of others. But despite this deluded wilfulness, the ball is firmly in her court, and no action will be taken my me, unless she makes a next move, first. . On the mundane level, I learned more of redemption through the Gospel on Sunday at St Aldate’s and Monday at st Ebbe’s, wrote “poems” about global redemption and having a more hardnosed and detached view of romance, accessed a marvellous service form Netgear having spent £60 on a warranty in December for 6 months which covers not only the Modem Router, but also the Dell laptop itself AND all the software. As a result 32 infections were expunged, superfluous security software from Norton and McAfee were uninstalled, AVG security was updated, Java was updated as well, and a general start at house-keeping was effected. Hopefully this Dell 6400 laptop will, after being purchased in 2007, continue to do its stuff until its earliest sell-by date in 2012, 5 years later. Now today, I’ve resumed ITQ at EMBS, and enjoyed a very effective revision of the Powerpoint I covered before Christmas. I’ve recently ordered, via Amazon UK, “V for Vendetta”, “Best of Bowie”, “Diamiond Dogs”, “Left Behind”, and have plenty more on my wish list. . Istiqlal, 3rd ‘Ala’, 167 BE The Independence and of Loftiness Friday, 4th March, 2011 AD . This week has been a week that was, quite remarkable. At the ward round yesterday, I was virtually discharged, though having fasted all day on the first day of the Fast, I quite remarkably unsurprised or unexcited by this, and took in my stride, as if it was no big deal. Such is the detachment that the Baha’i Fast engenders in any soul. The discharge is not official yet, though it seems to me likely that it will be declared next Tuesday at the next ward round, having enjoyed 5 nights in my flat. Today, I’d arranged for an electrician to fix the half dozen or so electrical faults, and he has, as we speak, gone to Cowley to pick up the spare parts. Two bigger jobs that I could have had done are the cooker and extractor fan, but I perhaps felt that heating and lighting is paramount, whereas the cooker is fine with one electric hob and no oven, at least for my needs now, and the extractor fan in the bathroom can wait anoither day too. Maybe I could mention these two jobs to him before he leaves, with a view to a second job. . I feel strangely detached from my romantic attachments, not that my intention has changes, but that I feel immeasurably more relaxed and radiantly acquiescent about the outcome. At the ward round, I brought up the question of pioneering east, and they were very clear that needing 300 mgs of Q/S would not be a problem with that. They were concerned however that my motivation should not be her, and I tried to reassure them that my ultimate motivation is not her, but to serve the Divine Plan, as it was in Februray 2007, before a mutual friend, seemed to put a spanner in the works, by suggesting to me, “Is there something you haven’t told me?” Actually there wasn’t, but it seemed to be others’ perceptions that my motivation was to be with her, not to serve the House. Other perceptions can be out, just like mine. .
Computer-wise, my ordinary user Pete Rose continues to have problems, so I have started using the Admin user as the primary part of the laptop to work with, entailing transfering a lot of material from the former to the latter. The freshness and speed of the new Admin user is way ahead of my previous user, which is nice. I’ve been working with Bowie, the Best of, in the background, which will become Diamond Dogs, Matt Monro, You from St Aldate’s, Nelly and finally Black Sabbath, being the most recent CD purchases. . Electrical work having been finished in time, I intend to attend Muslim MECO salat al’jumu’ah (Friday prayers) in Summertown, and then breaking the Baha’i Fast with the Baha’is around sunset in Oxford. I have 35 minutes to pack and cycle 15 minutes to Summertown. Looks like I need to rip “Aliens” to my Admin library, to speed up. Couldn’t find the Aliens CD, so had to do with instead, the studio album of Pink Floyd’s “Ummagumma”; not 3 bad! But I’d found my “shades” with only 6 minutes to go; not enough, so I’ll stay in until 16:45, when it’ll be time to set off the breaking of the Fast. Change of time to kick-off, so I’ll be leaving at 17:15. . Just arrived home from the breaking of the Fast, which included as well as a sumptuous feast of food, amidst Dawn Prayer No 7 from the US 2002 edition prayer book, which is ideal for the occasion, a game of charades, and a Fellowship of Baha’i love which seemed to me as I sped home with the wind on my Raleigh Pioneer 140 Easyride, a love which is out of this world; I feel so grateful to have such beautiful Baha’i friends.
1396) Status Update: A Change of Heart Concerning Medicine February 21, 2011
Posted by pete1844 in Status Updates.add a comment Kamal, 15th Mulk, 167 BE The Perfection and Questions of Dominion Monday, 21st February, 2011 AD . 1396) Status Update, A Change of Heart Concerning Medicine
. About the previous posts:- Tush, tush, getting a bit hot under the collar, Pete? Been getting things out of proportion? Perhaps, probably. After being hospitalised for the 7th time diue to psychological factors, regular alanzapine, aripiprazol and now quetiapine (Seroquel), those symptoms of bad brain-functioning of emotional over-reaction, catastrophizsing the events of the world around me, the psychic perceptions of parallel univereses, time travel, of visual and auditory hallucinations, perceptions of the next world in this, hypersensitivity to factors in the environment, and a hypersensitivity to other people, are all put on the back burner, if not swept under the carpet, and normalcy resumed, which is nice. . After being taking in for assessment on the evening of 5th January, nearly 2 months later, and, due to anti-psychotic medication, I’m feeling much more mediocre, mundane, banal, bland, and therefore fit in wioth society much better than before. Leave from the psyche ward has been increased so that I can go home every day from 10:00 to 18:00 and 21:30 on a Monday due to my Chinese class. Life is becoming sweet again, and stable, serene, placid, tranquil. Vitamins are still important, but no longer without backup from the psychotropic drugs from the pharmaceutical industry, which doesn’t seem quite so evil anymore. Am I missing the point, or getting it at last? Time will tell. . Fidal, 16th Mulk, 167 BE The Grace and Honour of Dominion Tuesday, 22nd February, 2011 AD . Today has been characterised by depression, rancour, hate and envy, a dull resentment of the pathetic nature of my life compared with the joys, privileges and successes that have been granted to so many of my friends who I perceive to look down on me with disdainful contempt, and a supercilious superiority. Followed by a grim, greitted teeth determination to follow my father’s interminable advice, “don’t let the bastards grind you down”. So I am being restored to Restore and ITQ, which will take up 4 days each week, heading for a better office job than the one I had of rnearlyt 30 years, extra income, and if I’m not too late, a chance to make by life work and function appropriately, before either western civilization or I collapse in old age and ruin. . ‘Idal, 17th Mulk, 167 BE The Justice and Sovereignty of Dominion Wednesday, 23rd February, 2011 AD . I’ve been on another of those emotional roller-coaster days so far today, starting off despondent and tearful and ending up unreasonably and unconscionably optimistic and upbeat, as if she will or might at any moment jump out from behind a corner and give me a long, passionate kiss, and suddenly my life would be a manifestation of that Belinda Carlisle song, “Heaven is a place on Earth”. Practical jobs achieved today include getting in touch with HMRC and am now awaiting a new password and paper tax return to fill in including pages for self-employment. . Istiqlal, 19th Mulk, 167 BE The Independence and Loftiness of Dominion Friday, 25th February 2011 AD . As sure as little apples, the optimism of Wednesday has evaporated, as usual, due to passage of time. There is too little factual evidence upon which to decide to be optimistic or pessimistic, so the outlook changes with the vagaries of emotion, based on no rhyme or reason, whatsoever. Today, a farewell gathering for the old cpontract at Restore, ready for a new contract with changes from the past, is followed, before a Baha’i discussion on “The the soul have a gender?” with being here at home on my own, with nothing for company but John Barry’;s wistful mourneful music, such as that for “Body Heat” starring William Hurt and Kathleen Turner, full of doubt, foreboding, anf an inability to regard even those closest to you as trustworthy, honest, sincere and thruithful. Such is life. Even she to whom my heart feels inseparably wedded, admitted herself that when with me she is dishonest. In that situation IO have noone to trust, and my distrust of Him, Baha’u';llah, Who seems to have doled out in the 35 years I have “followed” Him, nothing but failure, heartache and misery, has never been deeper. Why should I believe the remaining 20 years of my life should be any less disheartening? Why should I believe things will get better? What is the evidence? Especially when the only thing that would affect my misery is if she were to walk back into my life, and there is no rational reason to believe that will ever happen. I want her and nothing else, and what I want is not going to happen, according to any rational analysis and logoical reasoning. I love her, and her alone, and she is gone forever, isn’t she?
1395) Published: Dialogue: The Vitamin Revolution Against the Evil Murderous Pharmaceutical Industry December 23, 2010
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THE SHORT FILM FOR THE INCREDIBLE SONG. SELF DIRECTED BY KATE BUSH.
Since this story broke, New Zealanders have been clamouring for intravenous Vitamin C treatments. Vitamin C: Is it really a key factor in recovery.
Citizen Band likes this.
Pete Baldwin I was told earlier this evening that vitamins are now being tried out for psychiatric illnesses at the Warenford Psychiatric Hospital.
The amazing story of a King Country dairy farmer who caught swine flu and very nearly died. Living Proof: Vitamin C – Miracle Cure?
1394) Publication: Dialogue: Mass Psychosis caused by Mass Brain-Washing and Mind Control December 23, 2010
Posted by pete1844 in Dialogue.add a comment Istijlal, 12th Masa’il, 167 BE The Majhesty and Knowledge of Questions Thursday, 23rd December, 2010 AD . 1394) Mass Psychosis caused by Mass Brain-Washing and Mind Control
Pete Baldwin Many a true word said in veiled symbolic language, under the guise of poetic licence! Google on You Tube “MK Ultra” and “Monarch Programming”.
THE SHORT FILM FOR THE INCREDIBLE SONG. SELF DIRECTED BY KATE BUSH.
1393) Published: Dialogue: Read All About It! December 23, 2010
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Istijlal, 12th <Masa’il, 167 BE
The Majesty and Knowledge of Questions
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1393) Read All About It!
Pete Baldwin via InfoWars:
Fluoride Action Network | Fluoride is added to 70% of U.S. public drinking water supplies.
Pete Baldwin via InfoWars:
Kurt Nimmo | The Fourth Amendment will not be allowed to stand in the way of the forever war against manufactured enemies.
Twice within four days, my name has popped up in the Bush-era secret cables uncovered by WikiLeaks. Lucky me. Though nowhere near as earth-shattering as the uncovering of American misdeeds in Iraq and Afghanistan, these classified cables provide a stunning and bizarre peek into the paranoid minds of
mashable.com
Facebook’s Sheryl Sandberg has a message to all of the young women who want to get the corner office: The stakes have never been higher in the debate
TED Talks In this talk from RSA Animate, bestselling author Jeremy Rifkin investigates the evolution of empathy and the profound ways it has shaped human development and society.
peopleforfreedom.com
Helium Terrence Aym December 12, 2010 While the application of scientific knowledge creates technology, sometimes the technology is later
Pete Baldwin via National Liberation of Higher Healing
: So Alex Jones was dead right all along, yet again! Ref www.infowars.com
Study: fluoridated water causes brain damage in children
