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1710819/20140819a) Fourth and Vine. August 11, 2014

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23:28 BST (British Summer Time),
Fidal, 19th Kamal, 171 BE
Grace, Loftiness of Perfection
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Ath-Thalaathaa’, 23rd Shawwal, 1435 AH
Third Day of the week, of The Raised Month
Tuesday, 19th August 2014 AD



Its been a week since I last wrote. The emotional emergency of losing my charger deepened with finding a chocolate bar wrapper under my bed, finding 20p outside a friend’s room, finding the hall festooned with bunting the colour of Tomliboo Ooo, instead of Tomliboo Eee, interpreting something said from the stage as vindicating western medicine. All this should NOT have destabilised me, but it did, and Mr Hyde came out to play again and caused a bit of havoc, until I noticed my train of thought since the previous week, and stopped it from getting any worse. And there were plenty to help pulling me out of my black pit again and again.  But the shnanigins has continued, fueled by Sinead O’Connor’s music, and my own imagination, and my own memories, and my own refusal to consider any alternatives, whether my dreams suggest No 4, interpreting colours seemed to suggest No 5, I resisted it all to stay focused on No 6, no matter how unworthy I feel, how lacking in resources for her I am, or how irrational it is to consider that I have any chance of becoming good enough for her. No matter how unworthy, I am locked into needing her, because I love her, and that’s that. I noticed her roots were darker the other day, leading me to think that she is getting me to think about how she will age with time, and asking me to think whether it makes any difference to how I feel about her, and of course it does not, since I fell in love with her soul, not her physical frame, albeit she is very attractive, and always will be. And just typing about her makes me yearn, long, pine, desire even more, like feeding a wolf. I’ve not read the Writings much since I last fell in the black pit. Its not satisfactory, not ideal, but then “a man must abound in sanity to merit the madness of love” and my heart is clearly completely insanely in love with her, rational or not, and the appearance of the situation suggests not. My heart is convinced she loves me back, but my mind demands evidence, and there is no empirical evidence, and since in April or May 2008, she texted me to leave her alone, I am bound to honour her wish, and just a “Is this acceptable?” met with a negative response indicating no progress, apparently. I must wait, even though it might well be as absurd as “Waiting for Godot”, or waiting for No 4 for 26 wasted years. Never mind. If I hadn’t waited for No 4, I might have never been free to love No 6, when her time came up. And I do not really have a choice, since to NOT love No 6, I would lose all reason to be, and all ability to live sanely, so I must continue to believe that one day we will be together, because without that fantastic hope, I cannot function. I wept and cried when I heard “Fourth and Vine”.

1710811/20140811a) Happy Birthday, Sis, (56). August 11, 2014

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11:19 BST (British Summer Time),
Kamal, 11th Kamal, 171 BE
Perfection, Will of Perfection
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Al-Ithnayn, 15th Shawwal, 1435 AH
Second Day of the week, of The Raised Month
Monday, 11th August 2014 AD


1) Woman.

Unless one’s companion is incommunicado for unknown reasons, such as the lover, Majnun, alone, but craving Layli, and waiting on the Lord for deliverance from his separation from her.

2) Independence and Change.

“The US government has grown strangely quiet on the accusation that it was Russia or her allies that brought down the Malaysian airliner with a Buk anti-aircraft missile.” Ron Paul

Or watching “Thunderbirds”, or watching a documentary about Apollo, or watching a speech by JFK or Bobby, or reading a Baha’i book.

Photo: “Without courage we cannot practice any other virtue with consistency”—poet & author Maya Angelou. #MantraMonday (Photo via Time Magazine)

Or as written by Mr Hofman, “Lose money and you lose nothing; lose honour and you lose much, but if you lose courage, you lose everything.”

3) Me.

11:23. About to start today’s second session after Mr Dunbar’s second talk on the challenge of prayer, the first of four, that in the words of Shoghi Effendi, if met, will ensure success in teaching. And now, the second session of the day, facilitated by Ian Holland and Christine Boyett on something to do with creativity in serving the Faith. And the third session of the day this afternoon with Farahnaz Mahoney. Similar to the last two days of material in Kilkenny, here in Crowthorne, we are covering four fifths of the material from the 114 Youth Conferences, namely, 1) The Period of Youth, 2) Fostering Mutual Support and Assistance, 3) Youth and Community Building, 4) Contributing to the Advancement of Civilisation. First, the same ice-breaker as last year, a “shield” with 4 sectors. 1) North West, name and community. 2) South West something unusual, an ambition to become a Professor of Symbology, an expert in the TPV, writing a blockbuster novel combining sci-fi technology and the first WFG, and the dream of Paxman’s description on Newsnight of the result of Russian populism taking Europe by storm. 3) South East, 3 hopes for the outcome of this Summer School, to get more information on my destiny , and to keep attentive to pick up on any clues, such as “Mister B”, “Missed a bee”, which could be that I yearned for the bee’s company, OR that I had missed an opportunity to “acquire” a bee. As when interpreting the dream in Haifa in 2007, a dawn of pale blue and pale pink sky, with the words in black hanging in the air, “Pigs Might Fly”, and Margaret Appa in the PRC (Pilgrim Reception Centre) advised me to interpret the dream in whatever way would make me happy. And anyway, the next day I did indeed fly from Tel Aviv to Larnaca to London Heathrow, after a 3-day visit to the BWC (Baha’i World Centre) in 2007, immediately after the Baha’i Arts and Music Festival in Limasol, Cyprus.

18:44. During the last session my amygdala kicked in with an “emotional emergency”. One factor was that I have mislaid my mobile charger, so the time left, before I return to the City of Ox, in which I can access this blog using my mobile for a code is limited. Also, I found that poor phone reception had prevented me from accessing my messages and therefore codes, and I found I could no longer access the WordPress site, and I feared I had lost my blog forever, let alone get access to it. So, after that session I repaired to my room in solitude, wept for oblivion, despaired of ever being with 6 again, felt despair, slept, awoke, found the codes on my now good reception mobile, up here in my room on the first floor at Picton, re-accessed WordPress, got a new code that works, and Bingo, my blog is up and running again, and solitude and sleep gave my brain a space in which the triggered amygdala calmed down again. S’good!

19:46. Now, while there is still energy in my mobile to receive codes to open this blog, I’m off at top speed to The Theatre to have fun seeing Sarah do some more acting.

4) Sci-Fi.

1710810/20140810a) From Kilkenny to Crowthorne. August 10, 2014

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21:59 BST (British Summer Time),
Jamal, 10th Kamal, 171 BE
Beauty, Might of Perfection
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Axxxxxxxxxxx, 14th Shawwal, 1435 AH
Fxxxxxxxx Day of the week, of The Raised Month
Sunday, 10th August 2014 AD

22:13. Arrived at Crowthorne’s Wellington College safe and sound, and just in time to quickly register and then enjoy a devotional followed by some announcements followed by a riveting talk by Mr Hooper Dunbar, former member of the Universal House of Justice, to which I wrote copious notes, before coming back to my allotted room, and found a link to the Net, which my laptop did not reject as dangerous as with the one at The Dolphin Hotel last night. And so, this humble, though sometimes opinionated narrative, types this for you, dear reader of blog-posts.

1710719/20140731a) Transcending “Culture”. July 31, 2014

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14:21 BST (British Summer Time),
Istijlal, 19th Kalimat, 171 BE
Majesty, Loftiness of Words
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Al-Khamis, 4th Shawwal, 1435 AH
Fifth Day of the week, of The Raised Month
Thursday, 31st July 2014 AD


1) The Word of God.

19:00. Section CL. (150). “When the victory arriveth, every man shall profess himself as believer and shall hasten to the shelter of God’s Faith. Happy are they who in the days of world-encompassing trials have stood fast in the Cause and refused to swerve from its truth.” (Baha’u’llah, Gleanings from the Writings of Baha’u’llah, p. 319).

14:45. “You have asked whether a husband would be able to prevent his wife from embracing the divine light or a wife dissuade her husband from gaining entry into the Kingdom of God. In truth neither of them could prevent the other from entering into the Kingdom, unless the husband hath an excessive attachment to the wife or the wife to the husband. Indeed when either of the two worshippeth the other to the exclusion of God, then each could prevent the other from seeking admittance into His Kingdom.”

(‘Abdu’l-Baha, From a Tablet – translated from the Arabic)(Compilations, The Compilation of Compilations vol. I, p. 391)

17:57. “Upon the answer given to these challenging questions will, in a great measure, depend the success of the efforts which believers in every land are now exerting for the establishment of God’s kingdom upon the earth. Few will fail to recognize that the Spirit breathed by Bahá’u’lláh upon the world, and which is manifesting itself with varying degrees of intensity through the efforts consciously displayed by His avowed supporters and indirectly through certain humanitarian organizations, can never permeate and exercise an abiding influence upon mankind unless and until it incarnates itself in a visible Order, which would bear His name, wholly identify itself with His principles, and function in conformity with His laws. That Bahá’u’lláh in His Book of Aqdas, and later ‘Abdu’l-Bahá in His Will — a document which confirms, supplements, and correlates the provisions of the Aqdas — have set forth in their entirety those essential elements for the constitution of the world Bahá’í Commonwealth, no one who has read them will deny. According to these divinely-ordained administrative principles, the Dispensation of Bahá’u’lláh — the Ark of human salvation — must needs be modeled. From them, all future blessings must flow, and upon them its inviolable authority must ultimately rest.”

(Shoghi Effendi, The World Order of Baha’u’llah, p. 19)

To me this means that for the world’s problems to be solved, whatever system used, that system must do so in the Name of Baha’u’llah. No systems at present do anything in His name but His own Order.

23:18. Am attending Kilkenny and Crowthorne without Net connectivity so no blog posts after tomorrow until 15th.

2) Sci Fi.

Air Terranean’s Fireflash Airliner. From “Thunderbirds”‘ episodes, “Trapped in the Sky” and “Operation Crash-dive”.

3) Psychology and Health.

14:44. Yes, Unity in Diversity, not in the uniformity of the “corporate image”.

14:24. For me this asks the question, “What or who is a Baha’i”, and IF the answer is anyone who believes that Baha’u’llah is from God, then I am a Baha’i, and with regard to the Lesser Covenant, to me it is also crucial that the person in question understands the Will and Testament of ‘Abdu’l-Baha, and accepts that Baha’u’llah is making His Will apparent in the world through His Universal House of Justice. Everything else flows from that. So whether or not I am compliant with middle-class mores of the Home Counties is irrelevant. Whether or not I am a privileged university-educated compliant citizen with no hint of dissent from what is considered mainstream, orthodox or “normal” is also irrelevant. Whether or not I am defined as “ill” by whatever criteria an onlooker may feel are binding, is also irrelevant. As a dear Baha’i friend pointed out in a Facebook post some years ago, “true democracy” is one in which the rights of EVERY individual are safeguarded, and protected, even if in a minority of one. The Baha’i World Order is not and doesn’t claim to be a “true democracy”, since its elected representatives are accountable to God not mankind, but it could still be asserted, I feel, with some confidence, that in the Baha’i Community, the rights of the individual do count for something, even if they don’t trump the rights of the community completely. And the question therefore remains as to what extent an individual Baha’i is justifiably pressured to “conform” to the usual, normal culture in the Baha’i Community, or else get labeled as “ill”.

4). Change and Independence.


1710718/20140730a) Bobbing and Weaving, Ducking and Diving. July 30, 2014

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17:23 BST (British Summer Time),
‘Idal, 18th Kalimat, 171 BE
Justice, Dominion of Words
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Al-Arba’aa’, 3rd Shawwal, 1435 AH
Fourth Day of the week, of The Raised Month
Wednesday, 30th July 2014 AD


1) The Word of God.

Delhi Baha’i House of Worship, known as “The Lotus Temple”, or The Baha’i Temple of India, or more correctly as The Dawning Place of the Mention of God, or Mashriqu’l-Adhkar. Finished in 1986, dedicated in 1987, I believe.

Photo: Delhi Baha'i House of Worship, known as "The Lotus Temple", or The Baha'i Temple of India, or more correctly as The Dawning Place of the Mention of God, or Mashriqu'l-Adhkar. Finished in 1986, dedicated in 1987, I believe.

2) Sci Fi.

20:03. From 28th January 1961 to 29th April 1962 “Supercar” was aired on ATV, the ITV Channel for the Midlands. It featured as its lead hero, Mike Mercury as below. Mercury, the planet, is associated with Gemini, the sign of the Zodiac on the plane of the ecliptic. Gemini is an Air sign, which symbolises Intellect and Sociability, and is also a “Mutable” sign, which indicates changeability, which is also the meaning of the adjective Mercurial. Gemini and Mercury are also associated with the mythic character, Mercury, the winged Messenger, so that communication is also highlighted. And also, Mercury is the planet closest to the Sun. A depiction of the planet Mercury can be found in the sci fi film directed by Danny Boyle called “Sunshine”. The sign Gemini also denotes a multitude of personalities within a person, a multitude of hats or roles. And there is no “real” version; they all are. Also the quick-witted Gemini can see all the sides of an argument or discussion at the same time, so can be indecisive. Hence, “The Twins”, the 2 first magnitude stars in the constellation, Castor and Pollux, indicating at least two equal versions of the person. In a ST:TNG episode featuring lawless archeologist Vash, Picard picks up a piece of prized pottery from another world, a porcelain head with a lid, like a scalp, and inside a veritable community of “selves” co-existing and fulfilling different functions, just like in myself, at least two versions of Pete, Dr Jekkyl and Mr Hyde, or mild-mannered scientist, Bruce Banner and The Incredible Hulk.

3) Psychology and Health

17:29. I’m told I have no enemies but my perception is that my social environment is essentially hostile. Or that it is hostile to me being a Baha’i. But it is conceivable that this perceived hostility is subjective only, and another throw-back to my childhood, when “my world” of Gerry Anderson, NASA, Bobby Kennedy and The Baha’i Faith were constantly under attack, incessantly and systematically for many, many years, in favour of that extreme fundamentalist doctrine that was endlessly thrust down my throat, of atheism, materialism, pragmatism and worship of Nature, that denied God, morality, any dreams of a better world, in favour of prioritising “physical survival” at any cost. The legacy of that childhood emotional abuse is still with me, and the process of dealing with it cannot be rushed, and is a painfully slow process, BUT as a “died in the wool” Englishman with a “British bulldog attitude” to impossible missions or challenges……

18:46. I have never played “Happy Hippo” and though I’ve heard the name, know nothing more about it. I am far more familiar with Rod Hull’s emu, and his appalling treatment of Michael Parkinson.

18:46. Body Language. Too many people on BBC news have “smiling eyes” whilst discussing dire events, for me to believe that any of them are telling the truth. I once suggested to a “young man” that the “news” since 1945 have been a “practical joke”. He suggested that the joke had been going on far longer than that.

19:23. So, Pete, can you tolerate a person talking incessantly? Yes, so long as it is a woman, and there’s an intelligent point to what she is saying, other than ego and self-interest. Examples, Dr Alice Roberts and Maggie Aderin-Pocock.

Stupid, big pharma brainwashed quack!

1710717/20140729a) Where “63” and “77” come from. July 29, 2014

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15:35 BST (British Summer Time),
Fidal, 17th Kalimat, 171 BE
Grace, Sovereignty of Words
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Ath-Thalaathaa’, 2nd Shawwal, 1435 AH
Third Day of the week, of The Raised Month
Tuesday, 29th July 2014 AD

1) The Word of God.

16:05. ““The one true God, exalted be His glory, hath bestowed the government of the earth upon the kings. To none is given the right to act in any manner that would run counter to the considered views of them who are in authority. That which He hath reserved for Himself are the cities of men’s hearts; and of these the loved ones of Him Who is the Sovereign Truth are, in this Day, as the keys. Please God they may, one and all, be enabled to unlock, through the power of the Most Great Name, the gates of these cities. This is what is meant by aiding the one true God — a theme to which the Pen of Him Who causeth the dawn to break hath referred in all His Books and Tablets.”
(Baha’u’llah, Gleanings from the Writings of Baha’u’llah, p. 241)

16:05. Baha’u’llah “staged” a conflict at Badasht between Quddus and Tahirih. ‘Abdu’l-Baha “staged” a slagging off of Thornton Chase for the training benefit of the on-looking Persians. Who’s to say that much of world events is not “staged” by the authorities for the dramatic benefit of the masses? And that the reality of world events is nothing like its appearance in the mass news media? IF Labour versus Conservative, and Democrat versus Republican is no more authentic than professional wrestling, and every event choreographed, taking sides is irrelevant and meaningless, and what IF international disputes and wars are “staged”. The House tells us that Baha’is don’t take sides in even international disputes. Perhaps because we don’t have enough information to make a rational decision. And why did the Guardian stop reading The London Times in the 1950s, if it no longer reflected what was going on, but simply the narrative the authorities wanted us to believe “for dramatic effect”? Remember Ridvan 2011, “A word of caution: No matter how captivating the spectacle of the people’s fervour for change it must be remembered that there are interests which manipulate the course of events.”

2) Psychology and Health.


18:39. A comment on a previous post in June, by someone with the initials RF, and a misspelling of as to read ass, is fascinating me, and I am joining the dots and making 5. This is a highly improbable, though exciting and dangerous strategy. But difficult to resist, especially when the “s” could stand for …… and RF could stand for “remote flirting”. It could be a decoy, it could be chance, and it could be the real McCoy, with the emphasis on “the”. Definitely the genuine article, don’t you think, Daisy?

19:18. And a “repeat” from 17th June “Inter-Faith versus Child Exploitation”, as (highlighted by Remote Flirting from The, allegedly):-

“Just attended a meeting of the Cherwell Faith Forum about sexual exploitation of young people, such as in the recent Oxford Bullfinch investigation which jailed 7 men with long sentences. The whole meeting just reinforced my long-held perception that this civilisation is deeply morally and spiritually diseased and sick. And that one of the most important issues, which is largely neglected, is the total rethinking needed of sexual socialisation and stereotypes, since it is largely these definitions of what it is to be a man or to be a woman, which are to blame for these diseases and sicknesses of the heart and mind. One huge problem for me is that this, ie FB, is the only forum available to me to discuss these things. I used to have a link on FB to my blog. Maybe it was on “Pete Rose”‘s FB page, now sadly inaccessible to me. I don’t know how to create a link to my blog here though. Any tips? Its address is http://pete1844.wordpress.com I think. Yes, that’s the one, with the stress on the 2nd “I”.

23:10. Have had “I, Robot” starring Will Smith and Bruce Greenwood in the background. From the above meeting, it became clear that to a certain extent, aberrant behaviour is engendered by living one’s earliest years in a dysfunctional family. Maybe this experience dehumanises an infant and makes him or her more likely therefore to treat other people badly in the future. There was a Powerpoint list of factors that had been identified as commonly occurring in the lives of Young Victims. One factor that can identify victims is “displaying inappropriate sexualised behaviour”. Another is “regularly missing school and not taking part in education”. I used to play truant from primary school in order to avoid football. Another is “associating with other people involved in exploitation”. I have found that those I can relate to best, are like me psychiatric patients. “Like seeketh like”. Another is “mood swings or changes in well-being”. Such as bipolar mood swings? Asperger’s symptoms of reacting against being close to people? Another is “drug and alcohol abuse”. I used to be apparently addicted to endless bowls of breakfast cereal, with an infinite supply of chilled lactose laced full fat milk, and an infinite liberal covering of sugar. I am now after 35 odd years of their “treatment”, apparently irrevocably addicted to NHS pharmaceutical “neuroleptics”. Other less physical drugs I am addicted to are my habitual coping mechanisms for dealing with a “real world” that is an atrocity of injustice. Such coping mechanisms are living in an ideal fantasy world of fiction, gradually edging towards reality. Those worlds of Gerry Anderson, NASA,

Bobby Kennedy and the Baha’i Faith. To be able to escape from a real world that is shockingly hostile, into a world dominated by TV and Hollywood, selectively, is a drug that I need to take very frequently, otherwise the rage against the real world, the hatred of those who rule it, the contempt for those fallacies that seem to be promoted as normal. Escape from all these abominations is needed regularly. “Its difficult to see something as wrong when everyone around you behaves as if its normal”. This statement grabbed my attention. In my childhood, my father ruled with an iron fist. When I went to boarding school, the “system” ruled with an iron fist, full of middle class values of hypocrisy. When I went to work, the Civil Service hierarchy and its hidden values ruled with an iron fist while I was at work. To now be retired in “civvy street” after working for more than 29 years in such a psychological straitjacket is a wonderful freedom from state bullshit. When I was ill, the NHS psychiatric service ruled with an iron fist, hiding its inability to listen under a mask of Hippocratic care. And all these iron fists were seen as normal by me, until the thinking of The Baha’i Faith came to my rescue and told me that no, this society, this civilisation, is sick and diseased, morally and spiritually. Its values are not normal, they are a temporary and local aberration. And in the midst of this sick and diseased society, I maintain my individuality of one soul, dissident against the insanity around me, using my escape mechanism, my coping mechanism, of watching TV and sampling Hollywood to listen to those creative minds that have used their talent to do as I am doing. To find a Faith, a world Faith numbering 7 million souls after only 171 years which tells me that I am SANE, and society is sick, is a wonderful source of spiritual empowerment. Okay, its true that my ability to express my sexuality in an appropriate way, given the emotions and psychology which my infancy foisted on me, is severely compromised, and when I get close to anyone, I start to throw a fit of inappropriate behaviour, as if I’m panicking that if they get too close they could do REAL damage. Albeit my heart is craving human intimacy as if being starved of Oxygen and thirsting to death in Death Valley. But, given that inability to be close to someone I love, without feeling terrified, without feeling so anxious that I am going insane, still the coping mechanism empowers me spiritually, as in my Junior Youth years from 1966 to 1970. More of that elsewhere. My FB is pinging, so back in a moment.

00:02. So, THAT personal journey, Gerry Anderson, NASA, Bobby Kennedy, the Baha’i Faith, a journey from fantasy to reality, though at the same time side-stepping all the crap and bullshit from “normal society”. THAT personal journey, so often attacked with such fervent contempt by my father, THAT journey is what I cling to. Its THAT journey commented on by Baha’u’llah in 1992, when He brought me face to face with the ESB (Empire State Building) and said to me that He had been guiding me, not since the autumn of 1974, when I first heard the

magic name “Baha’i”, but from when I was born, from my first intimations of values beyond “normal”, a sanity far off but still attainable, beyond all the sadism and insanity. The oriental lilting music introducing the 1964 Tokyo Olympics, the magic of the first USA EVA through NASA’s Gemini 4 in 1965, the first US space-walk with Ed White. And with the background Sunday school lessons every week, same time, from Gerry Anderson, Supercar in 1961, Fireball XL5 in 1962, Stingray in 1964 and Thunderbirds in 1965. After being cut off from Gerry Anderson in 1967 as Captain Scarlet started up, while I was at boarding school, there was Astronomy, NASA, Bobby Kennedy and “Art”. I put together by my leaving date in June 1974 a portfolio of art-work, and there was a substantial role in that art-work, for the city of New York and more particularly the Manhattan sky-line. THAT was the ESB, symbolic of all the American virtues that I had grown up with in the persons of Mike Mercury, Steve Zodiac, Troy Tempest, Jeff Tracy and his sons, and then the Apollo astronauts, Bobby Kennedy, and then the dream went underground, in the rebellious creativity of David Bowie, King Crimson, Pink Floyd and John Lennon, and came to fruition just weeks after leaving school, in the recognition that Baha’u’llah wasn’t just another guru from the east like Maharishi, Gurdieff or Osho. The intuition from the stories of the 20000 Baha’i martyrs in Victorian times, giving their lives rather than recant, in the same spirit as the Christians under Nero and Diocletian, was that Baha’u’llah, even though not from New York or London, but instead from Tihran, was, nevertheless, an historical figure, as momentous as Jesus, Muhammad, Moses, Buddha and all the others. THAT put my “coping mechanism” on a new footing. Not just fibre-glass puppets touting American hypocrisy, not just astronauts cavorting in a warehouse in Arizona, claiming to be on the Moon. not just idealistic politicians, painting a picture of a New Jerusalem, that the business community in its psychopathic hatred was determined to strangle at birth, but a NEW FAITH. THAT Faith, that had USED American idealism to lead me one step at a time to that most rebellious act of all, to have the gall and effrontery to believe in a man Who claimed to be sent from God, Who came not from New York or London, but from Tihran. THAT was an act of defiance that the establishment of my pathetic life could not and would not stomach. 18 months later, hospitalised on a psych ward, that even my Baha’i friends thought I would never ever leave. But, as quoted by Mr Hofman from the Qur’an, “The infidels plotted and God plotted, and verily God is the best of plotters”. Even the Dr Mengeles of the NHS psychiatric industrial complex are powerless before the Might of Almighty God. Even Anglican priests are powerless to oppose Him! Right, Pete, that’s quite enough for now, thank you!

01:34. Watching “Our Man in Havana” (1958) (before Fidel Castro’s Revolution) starring Noel Coward, Alec Guinness, Burl Ives, Maureen O’Hara and Ralph Richardson by Graham Greene.

02:34. Watching “October 1917: Ten Days that Shook the World” (1927)  by Sergei Eisenstein.”


1710716/20140728a) Speed + Air = Friction + Heat. July 28, 2014

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01:23 BST (British Summer Time),
Kamal, 16th Kalimat, 171 BE
Perfection, Honour of Words
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Al-Ithnayn, 1st Shawwal, 1435 AH
Second Day of the week, of The Raised Month
Monday, 28th July 2014 AD



1) The Word of God.

01:32. The Barracks, Akka, The Holy Land. Where Baha’u’llah was imprisoned for two years after arriving in the Holy Land in 1868, 80 years before the beginning of the State of Israel.

2) Woman.


3) Psychology and Health.

01:28. The countdown to getting the 16:49 to Kilkenny on Friday has started, and I’m being hospitable to a couple from the Netherlands from tomorrow evening to Friday morning. I hope the heat-shield tiles on my outer skin can absorb the heat of tests, now that air-resistance at such high speeds is getting much higher. Time will tell.

The vulnerability to having my buttons pressed is at the best of times near, too near, the surface. And being on my own at home is the best way to recover my equilibrium. But to put up two people for 4 nights, and then travel to Ireland, stay in a school with many Baha’is, most of them from Ireland, whose culture, in my experience is so intimidating in its confidence in dealing with drama, emotion, spontaneity, depth, compared with its pathetic English counterpart, for a whole week, then successfully travel to posh-land, in the Home Counties, at a private boarding school, for another week with mostly sophisticated, middle-class, posh, university-educated, English  Baha’is, is asking for trouble, to put it mildly. IF I can survive the next 3 weeks, unscathed, I will be amazed, since socially, emotionally and psychologically, there is so much that can go wrong, surely some it will. Baha’u’llah, please be kind to me, and inspire people to “leave me be” in my own little bubble-world, and don’t let anyone prod me with their psychological cattle-prods, and if they do, please give me the presence and control of mind needed, to disregard such prods, and NOT react, either emotionally OR socially, since reacting only makes everything so much worse, and tends to blow everything out of proportion.

09:22. When I wake each morning I am filled with insights and conclusions about “my reality” and “what is going on” and many and most of these insights are negative. The ultimate conclusion is that I have no idea “what is going on” and have no expectation that anyone will help me understand, even if I ask them point blank. Yesterday at the Cream Tea, certain men of the Community, who in the past have apparently made my life difficult by testing me psychologically and refusing to explain why by making disparaging comments. Why they behaved like that is a mystery to me, and why they were absent from the Cream Tea is also a riddle the answer to which I have no idea. Also, the kindness and friendliness of many, hid an understanding of my situation which they obviously had no intention of sharing with me, and some seemed sad about the whole situation. At the inter-faith dinner last night, there were many who seemed friendly at an extent, but there was also an unmistakeable sense that many there, regarded The Baha’i Faith as something they would like to discredit and undermine and looked confident and pleased that they were succeeding in doing so, without their words betraying their hidden intentions at all. At the end I felt surrounded by snakes that utter smooth words of support and friendship, but are gleefully waiting to plunge the dagger, and do their utmost to damage Baha’u’llah’s Faith. And also, the lack of any firm empirical evidence, is used by everyone to disparage my conclusions and accuse me of paranoia and worse. And as always there is NO ONE I can consult about such things, except to express them here, so ultimately I have still NO idea what is going on, NO friend to help me understand except Baha’u’llah, and all around me look either sad at the pathetic situation I find myself in, or are rubbing their hands with glee at their confident expectation that I am done for.

09:57. Please inform …. that after “sleeping on it”, I have to decline or withdraw my offer of hospitality to ….  and ….  for the next 4 nights. One reason is that as the rules of sexual morality are quite strict for Baha’is albeit I am no saint myself, Shoghi Effendi the Guardian (vali’u’llah) of the Cause of God, says that we Baha’is must not compromise with the theories and standards of a decadent, spiritually sick society. As ….  and ….  are not yet man and wife, I cannot feel comfortable and cannot allow my own bed to be used by them together. Also, I feel that my situation in very many ways is replete with quite a high degree of vulnerability, and to open my home so thoroughly to those whose character, behaviour, motivation is so completely unknown and untested, would be the height of folly. I am sorry to have to do this considering their needs, but I DO have the responsibility of protecting my own interests, as these interests are a trust from God, in service to His Supreme Manifestation of God for this age. Hoping you will understand. Please notify ….  and ….  that I will not be meeting them this evening.

17:01. I might not feel fear, but just the stress of constantly living in an environment that is always totally hostile. The stress just wears you down, and you often just wonder, “What’s the point?”

21:28. Pure happiness for me is solitary confinement and complete silence at dusk. And pure torment is the noise of other people socialising. I must be an extreme misanthrope. A tortology would be “Misanthropes of the world, unite!”

21:50. Rather than not being able to tolerate the noise of someone eating an apple next to me, or brushing their teeth, or running their finger nail down a blackboard, or listening to someone explain themselves, I cannot stand hearing other people in conversation especially if they sound confident without being able to understand them or hear what they are saying, or hearing them laughing. THAT FEELS threatening like nothing else. My father often used to say that all he wanted for his birthday was peace and quiet. Maybe we three siblings have inherited from him an extreme hypersensitivity to various audio inputs.

When does the postman deliver to pulman close, redditch? When do I receive a letter in the snail-mail inviting me to meet her? And this in a situation where she pulls me close to her, and the red for love attraction that we feel for each other, an itch that just won’t go away, is satiated, at long last. But only when the time is right.

In order to get mail from Pulman Close, Redditch, I would say that virus BE1710711 is definitely a factor that is of primary importance. To drink of the same tea, to partake of the same spirits, in order to become intoxicated together, to consider each other as equals and not as property; all these things and more are needed, in order that communications can be enjoyed. Are we there yet?




1710715/20140727a) The Dominating Passion of Our Lives. July 27, 2014

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09:11 BST (British Summer Time),
Jamal, 15th Kalimat, 171 BE
Beauty, Questions of Words
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Yaum al-Ahad, 30th Ramadan, or is it 29th?, 1435 AH
First Day, of The Scorched Month
Sunday, 27th July 2014 AD



1) The Word of God.

09:19. Ruhi Book 6.

2) Psychology and Health.

09:33. 105.9. Yes! That’s 16 stone 9.5 pounds in the old money.

09:34. It occurred to me last night, that sensitivity, or extreme heightened sensitivity to certain sounds, is something that I share with both my siblings. Sudden loud noises make me jump, and the reaction seems to be getting worse. FEELING that someone is laughing at me, even if its just a “smile” in their tone of voice, makes me cringe, wince, seems to stab my heart like a dagger, being talked down to sometimes produces the same effect. If I’m whistling under my breath, or eating anything, my sister cannot stand to be in audible range of me. And any explanation I might feel called upon to utter, to explain myself makes my brother extremely angry. Its as if all three of us have been treated in our childhood with some strange psychological phenomenon that has programmed, primed and sensitised all three of us to certain audio inputs that none of us, as yet, can tolerate.

1710714/20140726a) Okay, Venus? Okay, Steve. Right, let’s go. July 26, 2014

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04:46 BST (British Summer Time),
Jalal, 14th Kalimat, 171 BE
Glory, Speech of Words
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
As-Sabt/Is-Sibt, 29th Ramadan, or is it 28th?, 1435 AH
Seventh Day, of The Scorched Month
Saturday, 26th July 2014 AD

1) Sci-Fi.

Photo: "Fireball XL5" (1962) launching into space, probably to Sector 25, from Space City, somewhere, I believe, in Latin America, with its crew, Colonel Space Zodiac of The World Space Patrol, Space Doctor Venus, Professor Matthew Matic, Robert the Robot and Venus' pet lazoon, Zoony.


“Fireball XL5″ (1962) launching into space, probably to Sector 25, from Space City, somewhere, I believe, in Latin America, with its crew, Colonel Space Zodiac of The World Space Patrol, Space Doctor Venus, Professor Matthew Matic, Robert the Robot and Venus’ pet lazoon, Zoony.

2) The Word of God.

04:54. 35.10 “Service to the Cause of God requires absolute fidelity and integrity and unwavering faith in Him. No good but only evil can come from taking the responsibility for the future of God’s Cause into our own hands and trying to force it into ways that we wish it to go regardless of the clear texts and our own limitations. It is His Cause. He has promised that its light will not fail. Our part is to cling tenaciously to the revealed Word and to the Institutions that He has created to preserve His Covenant.”

(The Universal House of Justice, Messages 1963 to 1986, p. 87)

04:55.”The spiritual principle that negative thoughts and feelings block the possibility of transformation applies to society as a whole, as well as to interpersonal relations. This principle allows us to understand why protest movements are a less effective strategy for social change than attempting to provide a model for social evolution, which is the Baha’i approach. Protesting against racism or environmental degradation or economic injustice usually focuses attention on the present and its imperfections instead of on the future and its potentialities. It does not create a positive dynamic for social change. Often protest movements, however well-intentioned, fall into negative patterns that create bitterness, estrangement and sometimes even violence, among the elements of society where change is needed.

Baha’is are occasionally accused of naive idealism or utopian impracticality because of our unwillingness to engage in partisan politics and protests. One way to respond to these accusations is to explain that we believe that the most useful response to social problems is to demonstrate that other ways of doing things are possible and workable. The Baha’i approach to social problems is not naive: we are actively trying to understand the forces of darkness and to implement new models capable of truly safeguarding the fundamental, spiritual and long-term needs of humanity. It is neither escapist nor impractical: our standard is to find and eliminate these forces within ourselves – a highly challenging and lifelong task – and to create new and vital social forms that transcend the negative tendencies of our inherited cultures. In so doing we provide society with a peerless and essential map.

The response to the dark force of racism is an example of the power of the Baha’i approach. It is possible to feel anger about social and racial injustice – even to take an action such as participating in a protest march – without discovering one’s own racial or ethnic prejudices or changing the segregated patterns of one’s own life. The Baha’i strategies for fighting the forces of darkness require more from the individual. Every believer of every race has to look within his or her own heart and mind to find the subconscious and unquestioned and racist attitudes that we have inevitably absorbed to some degree. Relying on the power of faith, we have to root out those attitudes and establish patterns of friendship, work relationships and social activities that go against the society’s norms of racial bias and segregation. Baha’i communities that have made noteworthy progress on this path have sometimes been seen to generate tremendous interest and enthusiasm in the society around them. Shoghi Effendi, writing through his secretary to a Baha’i community in the southern United States in 1947, described the nature of the battle against the forces of darkness:

“The friends must, at all times, bear in mind that they are, in a way, like soldiers under attack. The world at present is in an exceedingly dark condition spiritually; hatred and prejudice, of every sort, are literally tearing it to pieces. We, on the other hand, are the custodians of the opposite forces, the forces of love, of unity, of peace and integration, and we must constantly be on our guard, whether as individuals or as an Assembly or Community, lest through us these destructive, negative forces enter into our midst. In other words we must beware lest the darkness of society become reflected in our acts and attitudes, perhaps all unconsciously. Love for each other, the deep sense that we are a new organism, the dawn-breakers of a New World Order, must constantly animate our Baha’i lives, and we must pray to be protected from the contamination of a society which is so diseased with prejudice.” (Shoghi Effendi, 5th February1947, “Lights of Guidance”, pages 404 to 405, No 1347.)

When Shoghi Effendi told the Baha’is that we must not permit dark forces to take hold of us by thinking and feeling negatively towards each other, he set a standard for our interaction with each other and with the world.” (Forces of Our Time, The Dynamics of Light and Darkness” by Hooper C. Dunbar. 2009).

3) Psychology and Health.

04:35. I woke up just now, too early, wide awake, and not feeling I could get back to sleep. THAT is NOT a good sign, and sometimes indicates depression. I felt a palpable anxiety of impending doom, of being kicked in the stomach by a horse, gutted. I felt a very strong urge to understand why. Maybe its was a result of dreams that I had been experiencing before waking, but the anxiety kicked in AFTER I woke up. Maybe it was reading the three chapters of the Book of Joel last night, which put the fear of God into me, and an expectation of impending and imminent intense suffering. Maybe it is a test from God, to further hone and polish my soul. Maybe it is a chastisement for having invited the various Institutions and e-mail lists of Oxfordshire Baha’is to the MECO Eid al Fitr festivities on Tuesday. Well, whatever the cause, now 29 minutes later, I’m feeling fine, and the fear I felt when I awoke is quickly becoming a half remembered dream, and fairly easy to dismiss and forget. But since all this, I have felt VERY sedated and in need of sleep, making reading the Writings with alert attention impossible, and ended up sleeping inordinately from 07:15 to 10:15 and from 11:24 to 13:17.

14:25. In relation to an older thread, namely, “A new low in recent times, 106.6 kilos, but nevertheless, though this is better than the height of 117 kilos in 2012, which was a shocking 18 stone 6 pounds, the current low is still a dreadful 16 stone 11 pounds.”

X:- “You’re doing OK Pete, certainly a lot better than many.”

Yes, definite turning point was 2006 when I realised that the official attitude of the NHS to curing people or suppressing symptoms, and also their attitude to alternative medicine, was dishonest and as corrupt as hell. Tons of progress since then despite someone’s best effort to sabotage everything.

“O ye spiritual friends! Such must be your constancy that should the evil-wishers put every believer to death and only one remain, that one, singly and alone, will withstand all the peoples of the earth, and will go on scattering far and wide the sweet and holy fragrances of God. Wherefore, should any fearsome news, any word of terrifying events, reach you from the Holy Land, see to it that ye waver not, be ye not stricken by grief, be ye not shaken. Rather, rise ye up instantly, with iron resolve, and serve ye the Kingdom of God.”
(Abdu’l-Baha, Selections from the Writings of Abdu’l-Baha, p. 78)

In the light of “the intense mental tests” of Baha’is in the west, Shoghi Effendi’s reported comment, “There’s too much sickness in the British Baha’i Community.” And in the light of persecution of Christians within the Church for independent, critical thought, and externally by forces intensely hostile to anyone successfully accessing the power of the Inspiration of the Holy Spirit, in the light of Wahabi petro-dollars deliberately spreading an evil, which in the name of Islam, undermines and destroys that religion, why would Baha’is think themselves immune from attacks from a western, or perhaps global elite intent on destroying the power of the spirit in every religions as effectively as the Ummayyads destroyed the spirit of Islam by assassinating Ali in the year 661, turning Islam into a Beast that would vanquish the harlot of Babylon. But I digress. It seems to me that the Baha’is are under attack by forces they don’t understand, such as DEW (Directed Energy Weapons), which leave the body functioning but kill the soul. In “UFO” and the novels of David Brin, ex-NASA scientist, they are referred to “psyche bombs”.

15:29. Reminiscent of June 2010, I experienced a slight case of a revolution in my appetite earlier. In 2010, suddenly my appetite changed overnight from large helpings of healthy food, to meringues, breakfast cereal, and any sweet refined carbs. I was well into 2 raw carrots with cottage cheese, earlier, when it seemed as if my ability to swallow had stopped, and I was about to be sick. I toughed it out, stopped eating, waited for a possible constriction of the pipe to the stomach to relax, drank a small amount of water, and resumed the carrot and cheese. Episode over. Maybe, holding the water up to the window, in my Carlsberg beer glass, cupping it in both hands, and thinking spiritual thoughts about it, structuralised the water, making it a potent means for washing away dis-ease, and restoring health and normal functioning.

“O God, my God! I beg of Thee by the ocean of Thy healing, and by the splendors of the Daystar of Thy grace, and by Thy Name through which Thou didst subdue Thy servants, and by the pervasive power of Thy most exalted Word and the potency of Thy most august Pen, and by Thy mercy that hath preceded the creation of all who are in heaven and on earth, to purge me with the waters of Thy bounty from every affliction and disorder, and from all weakness and feebleness.

Thou seest, O my Lord, Thy suppliant waiting at the door of Thy bounty, and him who hath set his hopes on Thee clinging to the cord of Thy generosity. Deny him not, I beseech Thee, the things he seeketh from the ocean of Thy grace and the Daystar of Thy loving-kindness.

Powerful art Thou to do what pleaseth Thee. There is none other God save Thee, the Ever-Forgiving, the Most Generous.”

- Bahá’u’lláh.

16:54. Adib explains that when we are experiencing a higher level of spirituality and health, and increase our “speed”, then the increased friction with the air becomes greater, heating up the air surfaces of the airframe, which at very high speeds can cause damage. The heat generated, is like a test from God, and resistance from the non-believers, going against our speed. In this situation, back from the analogy to reality, the test produces stress. Whereas in the last two years or so, I have varied the dosage of Quetiapine/Seroquel, increasing it to cope with stressful situations, this time, I will keep the Quetiapine steady for the moment at 500 daily, and increase the daily intake of B3 from 2000 to 2500. I AM experiencing tests and therefore stress, when going out and about, since “The Truman Show” experiences keep turning up, social opposition to the Faith is just below the surface, out there, I seem to be manipulated right, left and centre, by people who seem to be using me to further their own unknown hidden agenda, and socialising with Baha’is in Oxfordshire seems to be a minefield of tests powerful enough to trigger hospitalisation No 9, which my first priority is to avoid.

Also, another sign of stress is sedation, sleepiness, lassitude, or maybe just the lack of energy, when the high speed suddenly becomes “half-ahead impulse”. Maybe its just “time out” to recharge my Dilithium crystals, maybe now a time of consolidation after a period of a high learning curve. Maybe rest and recuperation after a strenuous and hard-fought battle, time to tend to wounds, cuts and bruises. Maybe consolidation after the recent IPG (Intensive Programme of Growth).

19:31. Perhaps another reason for feeling so sedated in comparison with the intense energy of the last few days, is that the coursing of huge amounts of adrenaline through my blood supply as a result of the triggers experienced at the last CRM and after the last 19-Day Feast, has finally gone, and NOT been replaced by other social interactions which have triggered the amygdala and possibly limbic system. The question is whether I am going to foolishly attend the Cream Tea tomorrow and make myself vulnerable to more triggers that would jeopardise my attendance at 2 Summer Schools. Perhaps not. I slept again today from 17:07 to 18:51, third session of sleeping during the day, today. A sign of recovery I think.

4) Change and Independence.


I true soldier and jihadist, wrestling with dark forces with exemplary success, continuously until his intelligence based assassination and glorious martyrdom in 1980.

“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.”
John Lennon.

John Lennon as Musketeer Gripweed in “How I Won the War”, 1967.





1710713/20140725a) She’s Looking Good. July 25, 2014

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09:15 BST (British Summer Time),
Istiqlal, 13th Kalimat, 171 BE
Independence, Power of Words
Year number 19, Vahid, (Unity)
Vahid number 9, Baha, (Splendour)
Kull-i-Shay (Fullness of Time), number 1, Alif, (A),
Al-Jumu’ah, 28th Ramadan, or is it 27th?, 1435 AH
Gathering Day, of The Scorched Month
Friday, 25th July 2014 AD



1) Sci Fi.

Photo: Zero X on its way to Mars, to escape from rocks snakes in the nick of time, and in taking an interest in a Mysteron city, its intentions were regarded as hostile, and the MEV was destroyed by the Mysterons, but the wonders of human technology, retrometabolised the MEV and it was then as good as new. Or have I got it backwards?

09:14. Zero X is looking good, on its way to Mars, to escape from rocks snakes in the nick of time, and in taking an interest in a Mysteron city, its intentions were regarded as hostile, and the MEV was destroyed by the Mysterons, but the wonders of human technology, retrometabolised the MEV and it was then as good as new. Or have I got it backwards?

Photo: Probably the most beautiful Space Station in the world. Thunderbird 5.

09:30. Probably the most beautiful Space Station in the world. Thunderbird 5.

2) Psychology and Health.

09:25. Not only are the media not a reflection of reality, but reality isn’t a reflection of reality either. No, its just a Dassault Mirage over Port Stanley, but easily blown out of the sky by a Hawker Siddeley Harrier with its unique VTOL technology. I must get on with my Airfix model of a Harrier GR1. So far, all that’s been done is to paint the padding on the back of the pilot’s chair.

17:00. I feel melancholy, though I’m not sure why. Maybe its the underlying suspicion that I am on a Truman’s Show. Why else, whilst reading “Emotional Intelligence” by Daniel Goleman, under the shade of trees in Summertown, waiting for Friday Prayers with MECO, someone should say with distinct loudness as they walked past, “What colour is he?”, and later, “Oh, my God!” And then later, being stared at by a man in black, but with a white “dog collar” as if he could stop me as an alien from another planet. All occurrences that using “Occam’s Razor” have nothing to do with me. Is my intuition tuning in to something true, or making up fantasies? Nobody knows.

17:06. Size. Its a big issue in fiction. There’s “Gulliver’s Travels”, “The Borrowers”, “Land of the Giants”, “Inner Space”, “Fantastic Journey”, “The Incredible Shrinking Man”, episode of “Fireball XL5″ “Space Immigrants” and “The Triads”. episodes of “Stingray” “Tom Thumb Tempest”, for starters. So, what if the nature of reality has been changing since 21st April 1863, and size is becoming fluid, as in “Alice in Wonderland” drinking and eating, to grow or to miniturise? What if the relative dimensions of humans and the planet, have been changing, depending on the consciousness of human beings. On “The Sky at Night”, an image of the Earth, which also appeared on Facebook, showed the USA as 4 times its size in reality. IF the USA is bigger than it was, perhaps it has more room for growth of society within it, Its population can get bigger, without being a drain on its resources, and without threatening to exhaust its resources. I saw a cartoon recently of future astronauts visiting the Apollo Moon-shot landing sites and in the cartoon, the visitors were small, like Lilliputians from Gulliver’s Travel, standing besides a boot-print of maybe Armstrong or Aldrin, and a couple of them could lie down next to each other in a boot-print. But I can’t be bothered to think about this any longer at the moment. Its not exactly a case of “My brain hurts”, but more like, “This does not compute” and I don’t know how to think about it with any reason or understanding. Also BFG, Big Friendly Giant or Baha’i Friendly Government or World Friendly Government, or Baha’i Friendly Giant, or World Friendly Giant, or World Federal Government. Big Federal Giant? That would be a self that is a community of personalities as in that episode of ST:TNG in which Picard gets excited by a porcelain head, with a lid, and inside a community of “little people”, which reminds me of “the Little People”, the leprechauns, elves, pixies, goblins and fairies, and also the technology to miniturise people again in “The Secret Service” by Gerry Anderson.

00:19. I found this today, (or earlier yesterday, since its after midnight), in “Emotional Intelligence” by Daniel Goleman, page 9, quoting the 16th century (1500s) humanist, Erasmus of Rotterdam, who, writing in a satirical vein of this perennial tension between reason and emotion:- “Jupiter has bestowed far more passion than reason – you could calculate the ratio as 24 to one. He has set up two raging tyrants in opposition to Reason’s solitary power: anger and lust. How far Reason can prevail against the combined forces of these two the common life of man makes quite clear. Reason does the only thing she can and shouts herself hoarse, repeating formulas of virtue, while the other two bid her go hang herself, and are increasingly noisy and offensive, until at last their Ruler is exhausted, and gives up, and surrenders.” What cynicism! In my humble opinion, (IMHO), rather than reason being so exalted over Jupiter’s alleged anger and lust, the situation is very different. The heart is for the emotions of the Kingdom, and this is the place for God to sit within us, not the brain, with its over vaunted intellect, reason, and rational analysis. Agreed the emotions of anger and lust are regrettable, but rather than throw the baby out with the bath-water and dump all emotion in favour of reason is completely counter-productive. Rather see Jupiter as an embodiment of the Blessed Beauty, and the beauty of the Blessed Beauty as an embodiment of God, and as the overseer of Planet Earth on behalf of God from at least 6,000 BC to at least 500,000 AD. And for Jupiter to embody THAT Divine Beauty, the emotions of the Kingdom, disgusting the rational analysis of Reason, like Spock who just “goes off in a huff”, it is Dr Leonard Bones McCoy who LOVES with that heart-felt devotion and commitment that is of the heart. Spock’s “ponfar” is much more like lust, that drives him insane as in the episode “Amok Time”. And when the fervent love for the love of one’s life seems insane and irrational (“one must abound in sanity to merit the madness of love”) in reality, its that love for the most beautiful soul that you have ever met, which, under the umbrella, under the custody and protection of the Blessed Beauty, is allowed, sanctioned, valued, praised, and celebrated by The Lord. IMHO!

00:52. I wonder who lives in Pulman Close, Redditch, and whether they are relevant!

3) Space.

00:43. Maggie Aderin-Pocock says, “Get out and get looking up”. Its a starry, starry night, at least here, and almost at the zenith, directly overhead, the constellations of Bootes have shifted further “to the right” towards the sun-set, with Corona Borealis following, Hercules afterwards, no longer at the zenith, which is now occupied with two of the 3 Bright Summer stars, Vega and Deneb, and after them, rising on the left, from the rising point of the Sun in the east, the unmistakable great square of stars that forms the bulk of Pegasus, the Flying horse. Reminds me of “Pie-Gar” the means of transport for the blind Adonis in “Barbarella” starring Jane Fonda.

4) Change and Independence.

“Forces of Our Time, The Dynamics of Light and Darkness” by Hooper C. Dunbar on “protesting”. I want to type out 5 paragraphs from page 95 starting The spiritual principle that negative thoughts and feelings……”…to…page 97 and “……with each other and with the world.” But Zebedee says its time for bed. That typing out will have to go on the next post.


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