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1400) Published: Status Update: w/c 14/5/11 May 15, 2011

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Jalal, 17th Jamal, 168 BE
The Glory and Sovereignty of Beauty
Saturday, 14th May, 2011 AD
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1400)  w/c 14/5/11
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c.22:00, 15th May
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The DM in St Clements, which was based on some quotations from The Writings on health and healing was a wonderful evening of Baha’i fellowship, further rescuing me from the abyss of disaffection brought on via the sorrow and disapointment of the last 2 months, as all the usual aspects of living a Baha’i life as coming back on line. Moving on from the attachment that brought so much sorrow, I feel a renewed sense of being content to live my life for myself, not being dependent on anyone else. The daily Baha’i exercises of reading the Writings morn and evening, the obligatory prayers and reciting Allah’u’Abha are now starting to reestablish themselves in my daily routine, and now, opportunities to enjoy the social life of Baha’i meetings are starting to reestablish my life outside my flat again. Yesterday involved a discussion in Woodstock on the 28th December message from the Universal House of Justice, and today involved a prize-giving in Barnet where about 30 children from a dozen of schools were awarded prizes for their various pieces of work on the concept of world-citizenship. The usual routine of the last few years is steadily reasserting itself, minus that attachment, and life is good.
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16:49, 16th May
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I awoke at 12:50, but still tired, went back to sleep and awoke at 16:35. I had dreamed that I had travelled in time back to 1979 and met myself in some social setting such as might have happened a few years before in St Marks Road in Henley. After I woke up, I felt as if my perspective, for the first time was no longer about what I might acheive in my life, but what I might have achieved in my life. At 55 years old, my life has mostly already happened.
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06:51, 18th May
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Started reading, in earnest, “The Cosmic Ordering Service” by Barbel Mohr. It seems that these factors are already working for me in a minor way, to arrange the traffic at the Cutteslowe Ring Road roundabout, enabling me more often than not, to cross the roundabout without stopping and safely too. The 19 Day Feast in St Clements last night was very pleasant, as well as a late night discussion in Headington with an old Baha’i friend before cycling home. I deliberately missed my medication last night, so as to be up bright and early to be in Bicester at 10:30 for an interview with my consultant. Otherwise getting up in time would have been well nigh impossible. It entailed getting only two hours sleep however so I can’t do this every day.
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1399) Published: Status Update: w/c 7/5/11 May 10, 2011

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‘Idal, 14th Jamal 168 BE,
The Justice and Speech of Beauty,
Wednesday, 11th May 2011 AD
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1399) Status Update for w/c 7th May 2011
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00:10, 11th May
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It doesn’t feel comfortable typing here at the moment. Its over 2 months since I last wrote, and there have been changes. Here, late at night, with RLS making my feet excruciatingly restless, getting to sleep is the last on my agenda. (RLS = Restless Legs Syndrome). The RLS, which I feel mostly in my feet, is due, as a side-effect to the psycho-active drugs presribed for me. A more technical label for this restless is akathisia. Its preventing me for concentrating on this, so I think I’ll leave this for tomorrow, when this evening’s Quetiapine/Seroquel has worn off.
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12:27, 11th May
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Set the alarm for 06:30, but I didn’t hear it. The phone rang at 10:20. Before I checked the time, I assumed it was my care coordinator, due to see me at 14:00, but it was a call centre, claiming to be making a routine call about my computer. I asked them if they were Dell. No. Have Dell asked them to make this call? They hung up. Cyber crime? Anyway, I was awake, with 40 minutes to get up and get to Costa Coffee to meet Jan from MIND. A good chat to summarise progress to date, and then home to cook lunch before a session at the Kaleidoscope Centre at 13:00.
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17:14, 11th May
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A tolerable day, with some progress. After feeling sorrowful after 7th March, an extra month in hospital as a result, and from that sorrowful event, feeling disinclined to eaither pray or read the Baha’i Writings, just 24 hours of reading and praying again, has changed my mind-set and demeanour markedly. The session at MIND was about “well-being” and looking after one’s mind. Then, after an elated report back to my care coordinator, grocery shopping in Kidlington Sainsbury’s, watching a documentary on iplayer about peace-seeking from 1918 to 1945, and sampling some of the culinary delights of my rucksack, namely humous followed by clementines.
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17:19, 12th May
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Boredom is the enemy of hypo-mania, and after the tendency towards that over the last few days, due to having nothing specific to do yesterday evening and during today, plus the medication of the daily 350 mgs of Quetiapine/Seroquel, and getting plenty of sleep, has left me people quite down to earth, even though I read from BRC (Baha’i Readings from Canada) and recited the SOP (Short Obligatory Prayer). Last night’s sleep WAS delayed by infuriating RLS (Restless Legs Syndome) or akathisia, but eventually died off anf allowed me to sleep. All this punctuated by eating and watching the news on RT.
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18:13
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Just had to summon forth my assertiveness skills, to ask details concerning freehold/leasehold, building and contents insurance, and mortgage companies and solicitors, of a potential seller, with my family estate as the potential buyer. I arrived home again, slightly stressed out, but nothing being entertained by the TV couldn’t handle, and cause me to feel calm again, as I prepare food for dinner.
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23:19
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Question Time again, and I like Vince Cable and David Blunkett. No surprises there, then. Durng the evening, with the TV in the background, including a documentary about human biology from cradle to grave, sorted out some organisation related issues such as arranging transport to the Spring School in Burnham in Berkshire later this May. No emotional issues today on account of the Quetiapine last night. Life is comfortably mundane.
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14:00, 13th May
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Due to Quetiapine, as usual, couldn’t wake up before lunchtime, so too late for salat el jumu’ah with MECO; a lazy slow getting up during the afternoon for a DM in St Clements. DM = Devotional Meeting.